HOW TO
DESIRE
WITHOUT
A LIBIDO

Vi Khi Nao

The kisses on my lips have been torn off me

By an imperial indecision

Not by Madness nor Impulse

Not by God or Fissure of Time

One cannot give love to a person

With a heartbeat

That love will deteriorate with false dream,

Doubt, distance

The debris is in the wind &

I have given away my love to a ghost

And, afterwards,

I slept poorly

A petite ghost crawled into one of my sweat pores,

That sweat gland that wouldn’t glance at anyone left nor right,

And, has hibernated in there like a ghost before

Returning to that hemoglobin underpass reserved

Only to transport fat into body dysmorphia

Which my brain uses it to stash away

Garments of confidence

Scarves of humility

Habits of carnal fortitude

My dream fumbles through the infinite

Labyrinths of my memory, searching left and right,

Up and down for a mirror to donate its nightmares to

But the streets of remembrance are empty

The lampposts of ruins mark their singularity

The trees of time are shedding their leaves of impermanence

I say

Let me braid

The skull of your abyss one more time

Let me braid and braid your bottomless void with my bottomless void

Let me braid and braid your mind with my memory

Let me braid and braid your darkness with my darkness

Let me braid your hole with my hole

Let me braid your vacuity with my vacuity

Let me braid your nihility with my nihility

Let me braid your nothing with my nothing

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